I feel like I've been living in the shadows.

🖤 My thoughts of late have been monochrome. I'm not depressed, upset, angry or bitter, I can't put my finger on it as a specific thing that has happened.

I'm just not my usual 100% self, it's completely of my own making. Noone else is to blame and I'm not scared or ashamed to tell you this.

💔I KNOW it's transitional.

💔I KNOW it means a change is coming and I KNOW that I am the only one who can do anything to change the way i feel.

Usually I would never share this publicly. The shame of admitting weakness, thinking that if I show the outside world my true self when I'm not feeling rock solid, confident and happy I will be judged as weak.

It's all about control, I feel I am not 100% in control of my life right now. There are too many unknown quantities, things I'm waiting for, things I have failed to do in the last few months.

I feel like I'm waiting and that's not my style. I'm naturally an impulsive person who takes action first and figures things out later but I don't seem to be taking action of any kind right now.

So I've allowed myself to feel the way I do for a few days but now it's enough. I'm grateful I recognise this and i know what I need to do to move forward.

Bring back good habits - Affirmations, gratitude, exercise.

Stop being so hard on myself.

Work on growth. Throw myself into more meditation and reading to improve my mindset.

Breathe deeply. Take time every day for me.

So now I am reasy to come back into full colour and back into focus.

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Can you relate? How are you feeling atm?

Much love x